A journey of reconciliation

"Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever. "
- Psalms 23

Tuesday 31 January 2012

Journeying with DAD

This is about the journey with my Father in heaven. After many posts on my earthly dad and the management of his cancer ondition, i  am making ONE post about my journey with my father in heaven.

'All things happen for the good of those who love him'-God
where do i begin? My life has been very different from the time we discovered Dad's condition.
it seems like all is in his leading and guidance. Becoz of this, i am able to complete my Touch for Health training and become an instructor. I was able to get involved in Feldenkrais and attended those sessions conducted by Maja. I came to discover Young Living. Without all this, i might still be in the 'teacher-school-consciousness' today. My money has become a lot lesser, my life has become a lot simpler.

Many times, i find myself frustarted a lot with my earthly dad. I have openly declared couple of times "i don;t like my dad'. The Enneagram profiled me as a Type 1 Perfectionist (although i beg to differ). I cannot stand teh chauvinistic ways my dad displays; it is as if there are 2 maids at home (mum & me). I can feel at any time of the day the amount of consideration and love my mum puts in for us (me, siblings). From dad, i see and feel a lot a lot of self-centeredness. I cannot stand that most time. For Dad, he has a big 'I'. On my off-grace days, i often experience a lot of anger at him.

It is on these days that i experience my judgementalism. I judge. and I judge a lot. i hold it against him. and for that, i make myself miserable. Until God descend into my heart gently and switch on my 'Jesus lens' which i asked Him for them years ago as i sing "Let me see , through Jesus' eyes". That i remembered GRACE. The GRACE of God. Christianity did not run a recruitment drive. It has always been "Let anyone come to me." We are who we are, because of sin, and therefore, we are. Until God's GRACE works through us. And no matter who we are, and what we are, God loves us all the same, uses our hands all the same , no matter who we are and what we are. So long as we are willing, God can use us. So long as we are repentant, His love is with us.

And the fact that I judge, i recognizes the EGO in me. There is something there that doesn't agree with ME. It is a tug-of-war with EGOES. Now i have that head knowledge. I ask for God's grace to come to terms with it. May the Holy Spirit teachers my heart.

The journey with my earthly dad is like a BIG...HUGE piece of mirror , reflecting to me how fallen I am. And i say this not in despair, but rather as an acknowledgement and giving thanks to God for his GRACE, that rather than being condemned, i am saved anymore.

I often heard this,"So and so is a Christian, how can a Christian do this?"
I used to think this way and made such judgement. Until the day the Lord opened my eyes to see.
He showed me "Look at that man, the one people called him selfish? That's my son".
"Look at that chap. He is a hopeless cell leader isn't he, not as articulate? and can't quite make out what he is trying to say right? Well, that's my son as well."
"My sons are not perfect. Far from it. That's why they need me."
i felt so ashamed and humbled when that realization came. (Not condemned. No , never,for His blood has paid for all).

Thank you, Jesus.

Sunday 22 January 2012

SABAH SNAKE GRASS (SSG)- Day 9

It has been 9 days since Dad started taking SSG (150 leaves + 1 green apple blended with water and ice, once a day int he morning).

There is a significant change. When he first come back from USA at the end of December, he was having a hard time. Backpain got worse, and there was a lot of discomfort for him in the stomach. Throughout the whole day, he was either putting heat pack on his tummy or behind his back, or taking long walks (sometime in the middle of the night!)  in order to reduce his discomfort; almost to no avail.His appetite was really bad. His weight dropped about 5-6kg and he is now only 53kg.

  I tried BCST, Vita-flex, and some moves of Jin Shin Jytsu that Yonie taught me. Usually these works well for dad and he would get relief from these. NOT THIS TIME.

Right now, non Day 9 of SSG, he is kind of back to PRE-USA days. His pain spouts are much less intense and much less frequent. There is also a lot less wind. He no longer needs to take walks in the middle of the night. He is also finally able to eat better and more. He told me that the body seemed to be going through some form of detox as his excretion and ermm.... pardon me, FART smells REAL BAD. He also has less phlegm when he wakes up in the morning.

When i worked on him using BCST, i can feel that his nervous system calms down quite abit as compared to last week.

Way to go. way to go.

Sunday 15 January 2012

New source of Sabah Snake Grass in Singapore

I spent 2 days buying sabah snake grass (SSG), and looking for place to plant them.
i need 150 leaves a day and one pot @$5 has 3 thin stalks sticking out from them.
i keep thinking  how many pots i must buy and where i can plant them.

Then, Uncle7 send a contact and said i could buy SSG powder @ kim tian place.
being singaporean kiasu, i thought i better  go buy some powder and keep in case there is somehow no more leaves for some reason.

I nearly FAINTED when i walk into the Mdm Ong's place at Kim Tian .
they sell SSG leaves!!!!1kg @$15 and it's about 2000 leaves!!!!!!!!!!!!

(CORRECTION :The price that I had earlier indicated above is not the correct price. 1kg of SSG (2000 leaves) costs $30. The $15 as indicated is for 1/2kg (1000 leaves) only.  My apologies for misquoting the price earlier!)

and to think i have been running around buying pots and stalks and thinking now i have to become a gardener!!!!!!!! WAU LAU EH!
and the deliver some more.
check out the blog.very good info on SSG
http://blog.ongsiwkim.com
By the way, i was told SSG should be taken earlier in the day.
Never take SSG in the evening as it is very 'LIANG'.

i' ll continue to plant SSG as i realised when u plant, the leaves are fresher. If u buy, they r a little LITTLE drier.

 

Tuesday 10 January 2012

Another webiste put up by cancer survivor

i chanced upon this website while searching for Sabah Snake Grass.
It is written by a stage 4 cancer patient and his journey.
http://upekah.blogspot.com/

Monday 9 January 2012

SABAH SNAKE GRASS (SSG)

Yang told me about this in Oct last year during BCST class. Many cancer patient went into remission after taking SABAH SNAKE GRASS (SSG). she actually gave me a stalk to bring back to Singapore. I planted it outside my flat and left it there. "100 leaves a day + 1 green apple". i have not figured out to to grow it fast enough, so i put it on hold.

3 weeks later, LiLi told me about a case whereby a girl she knows (Cancer stage 4) went into remission after taking SSG. "can get from Chong Pang Market".
and i was sooo busy in December i postpone it once more.

Uncle 6 came few days ago with a print out on SSG "My neighbour gave this.....remission....".

When God send people your way talking about the same things 3 times, it is not wise to ignore.
Today we went to the farm to buy SSG and started dad on it.
Dad has not been well since December.


Many good stories and caution about SSG can be found on the web. i'll include a few links below.
We got our pots from here @ $5 a pot:
WORLD FARM
15 BAH SOON PAH RD (near Khatib Camp)
Tel 62573259/67520500

There are still many pots available.

Some links:-
http://goodguy.hubpages.com/hub/Herbal-cure-for-cancer
http://upekah.blogspot.com/

or u can always google or more :)