The end that marks the new beginning

Dad passed on last evening, on my birthday, in a most resourced way, exactly 16 months after his initial pancreatic cancer diagnosis.

Throughout his journey, he experienced so so so much of God's grace and love from his immediate family. Apart from his presenting cancer condition, he was healthy and in good form.  Even for weeks before he passed on, he stopped his pain medication, as his pain was according to him "very mangeable", except for a ketotop patch he placed on his lower back everyday without fail. It is a placebo that assured him that his pain will be taken care of.

The only time he experienced great pain was when his bowel was perforated the day before he passed on. That too, did not last long, as he body was resourced in responding.

He walked through with me, every modality of healing I picked up since.
He received them each day and taught me about how these i learnt helped to support him.
He is my greatest teacher.


He is loved. Well-loved and very loved.
He put up a GREAT GREAT GREAT fight all the way to the end.
He is a BRAVE BRAVE man.

This is the end of that part of the journey with my dad while he walks on the surface of the earth.
Dad, till we meet again.

"My heartfelt thanks goes out to all those who have supported him in his journey with prayers, love and kindness".

Dad. Maldives. June 2012

Just when he thought he could not make it to Maldives, God's Love manifest. He recovered enough to be discharged to enjoy his last family trip to Maldives.

small intestine swollen

I told dad,"Hey, i need u to work with me. I'm going to this vibrational raindrop technique class for 4 full days, so i cannot work on u daytime. U must wait for me to finish class, and work on u in the evening. Meanwhile u have to be good. Dont let your body give trouble ok. After i learn th new therapy, I'll come back and use it on u ok? And he said " ok, u go. I will think of ways to take care if myself". And for for 4 days, i was at RELC learning from FEE BOEY how todo applied vitaflex and also using tuning forks to perform the raindrop techniques with the biblical oils for healing. After class, i'll come back right home, as i know dear dad is looking forward to my homecoming; his tummy has been ever so bloated that he dare not eat much as the discomfort is really bothering him. At the same time, he knows he cannot afford to lose more weight, so he has been forcing himself to eat soemthing. Therapy gives him some comfort. I was giving him full raindrops each day i come back. Indeed, the day after i finished the course, Dr Tham wanted dad admitted strLaight away; good old dad has really hanged in until i completed the raindrop classes. TaLK about God's grace and his timing.Dr Tham was shocked when he took a look at dad's very bloated tummy and ordered immediate admission. "Do not eat or drink anything from now onwards. Sip little water only if u need". Later on, we understood why.He has suspected that the cancer cells have spread. True enough, the CATscan showed that his cance cells have metastasized all over and a particular lump has caused an obstruction is his small intestine. That lump is like a time bomb. It can burst anytime, and when that happens, it will lead to death. For 3 days, dad was in hospital without any food and water. Just in drip. A pipe from his guts inserted through his nose was connected to a suction pump, which sucks out the content of his gut periodically. In the evening on day 3, the GI surgeon came and broke the news. Cancer has metastsized all over, full of it in the abdominals and even in the bones. The only options are to live with the pipe and suction pump from then onwards, or to have a surgery to do a bypass his small intestine. At 52kg, and only skin and bones left, surgery is not a real option. It was like the death sentence passed. It was a heavy night for most of the family. He was sooo looking forward to his Maldives trip in 2 weeks time. Now he is not going to make it. With God's peace in my heart, i told dad (and family),"No surgery. We'll give the therapies a go. Ill work on dad 3 times a day. We (God) gonna blow a path in his guts for food to pass.Thank god for his divine intevention and a supportive community. Yonie, Peixin and Adida came to work on him the following day. I started doing vibrational raindrop technique on him in the hospital B2 ward with my essential oils and tuning fork. On themorning i did applied the biblical oils on him (Onycha, Myrle, Rose of Sharon, Frankincense etc), he had a GOD encounter. Shortly afte i worked on him, uncle 6's church friend turned up by divine appointment. THEY PRAYED FOR HIM.For the first time in his life, he felt the chemistry. As they prayed, he felt the power of God moving through his body. He said ' if u r real, show me again'. AGAIN! it happened. When he shared this with me, i knew that God had made a way in his guts for food to pass. Many godly people had been praying for him. For days we worked together diligently. By day 8, the miracle happened. Dad can eat again. They r no longer drawung volumes from his tummy, and he is moving his bowels. The PATH was created. Praise the Lord!

ONCOVIT, PETER & STEVEN

PETER is so nice to offer his time to meet us in JB to bring us to Stephen, who is reseacher for ONCOVIT. Peter, a church worker, came across my journey with dad blog. His wife was healed from cancer by taking oncovit. AtStephen's place, we met another liver cancer survivor. He came back to replenish his oncovit supply. I can sense Peter ans Stephen's sincerity in helping. Stephen said 'If god brings you to me, i'll do my best to help. Please call me anytime should u encounter any issues.'. I was moved by his commitment towars his calling. Dad decided to buy 3 weeks supply of oncovit to give it a go. He started taking it 2 days later. 10 capsules x 4 times a day. He had a hard time. With each dosage, his tummy got ever more bloated and his has got lots if wind. He can hear loud noises coming from his stomach, as if someone is flushing a toilet in his tummy. We seeked help from Stephen (who is ever so willing). It seems like Dad's cancer has reached a serious stage. This is an associated healing crisis. Maybe if he pulled through this, he may start to heal.Quite a number of Stephen's patient went through healing crisises; not because of oncovit ; because of the medical condition call cancer. On day 3 of oncovit, after Dad vomitted 6-7 times throughout the day, we sent him to A&E. They put him on drip, injected some drugs, the vomiting stopped and we took him home at his insistence. Doc wanted to keep him for observation, but he said NO. He said 'once they admit me, i'm never gonna make it back out.' and i know that he is not gonna touch ONCOVIT again. And thats a pity. I've a string feeling that oncovit can bring him somewhere in terms of healing. Maybe we r a step too late.

5 months of SSG.

i have not be diligently posting as life has been eventful and busy. So now i m backdating this blog with dad's progress. dad has now been on SSG for 5 months as of end May. His most recent dosage is 150 leaves with green apple in the mornung and 10 capsules of SSG in the afternoon. Yes, due to demand, SSGnow comes in capsule. The blend does taste yucky so dad feels that once a day of blend is morethan wht he can take. The efficacy of SSG seems to have hit a bottleneck for dad yet again, as he did not feel much relief from his symptoms. He feels bloated most days, and here r a lot of sound in his stomach. Backpain occurs quite frequent. Recent CT scan shows that cancer cells have metastasized to the lungs. Looks like SSG has healed many, and it may not be working for dad somehow.

3.5 months after SSG

The effects of SSG seemed to have slowed down for my dad (Pancreatic cancer). He is experiencing the symptoms more often now. His appetite has also gone downhill together with his weight. He is still much skinnier (just when I thought he is down to skins and bones, he appears to be capable of losing some more, poor man).

The daily dosage of 200 leaves + 5 capsules of SSG in the afternoon seemed to help a little bit more. He was a lot better compared to the December period before he started on SSG. Just that we seemed not be able to make much progress from there.

Just when we are at our wits end again, God send someone by the name of Peter Tan who is a church worker. He recommended an aloe remedy known as ONCOVIT. I am checking this out and see if this can help. I’ll post more information about ONCOVIT after I am more acquainted with it.

2.5months after Sabah Snake Grass

My dad has been on a 200 leaves daily dosage of SSG for the past 2.5 months. With the SSG, he took himself off ALL the suplements he has been taking for the past 1 year (ie. Vit C, CoQ10, Antioxidants, Liver Balance Plus, Kidney Rescue, Omega 3). leaving with himself only the enzymes and probiotics.

Symptomatically, he has been having lesser pain, lesser gas, better sleep. The main issue is weight. He still is not able to eat very much, especially in the evening. Thank God his weight did not drop further this month. He is barely 50kg , and when he takes off his shirt, you can identify the position of each rib visually; no palpation needed.

He went for a CAT scan this week. The report is not great. The tumout mass has grown by 20%, there is a sighting of a growth in his lungs, and he has started to develop ascites. His cancer marker is now past 300.

Now that is disconcerting, and at the  same time puzzling, as he is feeling better in the body, but his diagnostics seems to say otherwise.

We'll still continue him on the SSG, and this time, we'll add a dosage of SSG capsules (yes, now they do come in capsules) in the afternoon and see what happens. and, step up on the therapy work.

i guess it will take everyone a few days to fully processed the news delivered by the diagnostics.
Personally i am thankful for SSG. It made him feel a whole load better than before.

More information on SSG here
http://sabahsnakegrassbook.blogspot.com/

Journeying with DAD

This is about the journey with my Father in heaven. After many posts on my earthly dad and the management of his cancer ondition, i  am making ONE post about my journey with my father in heaven.

'All things happen for the good of those who love him'-God
where do i begin? My life has been very different from the time we discovered Dad's condition.
it seems like all is in his leading and guidance. Becoz of this, i am able to complete my Touch for Health training and become an instructor. I was able to get involved in Feldenkrais and attended those sessions conducted by Maja. I came to discover Young Living. Without all this, i might still be in the 'teacher-school-consciousness' today. My money has become a lot lesser, my life has become a lot simpler.

Many times, i find myself frustarted a lot with my earthly dad. I have openly declared couple of times "i don;t like my dad'. The Enneagram profiled me as a Type 1 Perfectionist (although i beg to differ). I cannot stand teh chauvinistic ways my dad displays; it is as if there are 2 maids at home (mum & me). I can feel at any time of the day the amount of consideration and love my mum puts in for us (me, siblings). From dad, i see and feel a lot a lot of self-centeredness. I cannot stand that most time. For Dad, he has a big 'I'. On my off-grace days, i often experience a lot of anger at him.

It is on these days that i experience my judgementalism. I judge. and I judge a lot. i hold it against him. and for that, i make myself miserable. Until God descend into my heart gently and switch on my 'Jesus lens' which i asked Him for them years ago as i sing "Let me see , through Jesus' eyes". That i remembered GRACE. The GRACE of God. Christianity did not run a recruitment drive. It has always been "Let anyone come to me." We are who we are, because of sin, and therefore, we are. Until God's GRACE works through us. And no matter who we are, and what we are, God loves us all the same, uses our hands all the same , no matter who we are and what we are. So long as we are willing, God can use us. So long as we are repentant, His love is with us.

And the fact that I judge, i recognizes the EGO in me. There is something there that doesn't agree with ME. It is a tug-of-war with EGOES. Now i have that head knowledge. I ask for God's grace to come to terms with it. May the Holy Spirit teachers my heart.

The journey with my earthly dad is like a BIG...HUGE piece of mirror , reflecting to me how fallen I am. And i say this not in despair, but rather as an acknowledgement and giving thanks to God for his GRACE, that rather than being condemned, i am saved anymore.

I often heard this,"So and so is a Christian, how can a Christian do this?"
I used to think this way and made such judgement. Until the day the Lord opened my eyes to see.
He showed me "Look at that man, the one people called him selfish? That's my son".
"Look at that chap. He is a hopeless cell leader isn't he, not as articulate? and can't quite make out what he is trying to say right? Well, that's my son as well."
"My sons are not perfect. Far from it. That's why they need me."
i felt so ashamed and humbled when that realization came. (Not condemned. No , never,for His blood has paid for all).

Thank you, Jesus.

SABAH SNAKE GRASS (SSG)- Day 9

It has been 9 days since Dad started taking SSG (150 leaves + 1 green apple blended with water and ice, once a day int he morning).

There is a significant change. When he first come back from USA at the end of December, he was having a hard time. Backpain got worse, and there was a lot of discomfort for him in the stomach. Throughout the whole day, he was either putting heat pack on his tummy or behind his back, or taking long walks (sometime in the middle of the night!)  in order to reduce his discomfort; almost to no avail.His appetite was really bad. His weight dropped about 5-6kg and he is now only 53kg.

  I tried BCST, Vita-flex, and some moves of Jin Shin Jytsu that Yonie taught me. Usually these works well for dad and he would get relief from these. NOT THIS TIME.

Right now, non Day 9 of SSG, he is kind of back to PRE-USA days. His pain spouts are much less intense and much less frequent. There is also a lot less wind. He no longer needs to take walks in the middle of the night. He is also finally able to eat better and more. He told me that the body seemed to be going through some form of detox as his excretion and ermm.... pardon me, FART smells REAL BAD. He also has less phlegm when he wakes up in the morning.

When i worked on him using BCST, i can feel that his nervous system calms down quite abit as compared to last week.

Way to go. way to go.

New source of Sabah Snake Grass in Singapore

I spent 2 days buying sabah snake grass (SSG), and looking for place to plant them.
i need 150 leaves a day and one pot @$5 has 3 thin stalks sticking out from them.
i keep thinking  how many pots i must buy and where i can plant them.

Then, Uncle7 send a contact and said i could buy SSG powder @ kim tian place.
being singaporean kiasu, i thought i better  go buy some powder and keep in case there is somehow no more leaves for some reason.

I nearly FAINTED when i walk into the Mdm Ong's place at Kim Tian .
they sell SSG leaves!!!!1kg @$15 and it's about 2000 leaves!!!!!!!!!!!!

(CORRECTION :The price that I had earlier indicated above is not the correct price. 1kg of SSG (2000 leaves) costs $30. The $15 as indicated is for 1/2kg (1000 leaves) only.  My apologies for misquoting the price earlier!)

and to think i have been running around buying pots and stalks and thinking now i have to become a gardener!!!!!!!! WAU LAU EH!
and the deliver some more.
check out the blog.very good info on SSG
http://blog.ongsiwkim.com
By the way, i was told SSG should be taken earlier in the day.
Never take SSG in the evening as it is very 'LIANG'.

i' ll continue to plant SSG as i realised when u plant, the leaves are fresher. If u buy, they r a little LITTLE drier.

 

Another webiste put up by cancer survivor

i chanced upon this website while searching for Sabah Snake Grass.
It is written by a stage 4 cancer patient and his journey.
http://upekah.blogspot.com/

SABAH SNAKE GRASS (SSG)

Yang told me about this in Oct last year during BCST class. Many cancer patient went into remission after taking SABAH SNAKE GRASS (SSG). she actually gave me a stalk to bring back to Singapore. I planted it outside my flat and left it there. "100 leaves a day + 1 green apple". i have not figured out to to grow it fast enough, so i put it on hold.

3 weeks later, LiLi told me about a case whereby a girl she knows (Cancer stage 4) went into remission after taking SSG. "can get from Chong Pang Market".
and i was sooo busy in December i postpone it once more.

Uncle 6 came few days ago with a print out on SSG "My neighbour gave this.....remission....".

When God send people your way talking about the same things 3 times, it is not wise to ignore.
Today we went to the farm to buy SSG and started dad on it.
Dad has not been well since December.

Many good stories and caution about SSG can be found on the web. i'll include a few links below.
We got our pots from here @ $5 a pot:
WORLD FARM
15 BAH SOON PAH RD (near Khatib Camp)
Tel 62573259/67520500

There are still many pots available.

Some links:-
http://goodguy.hubpages.com/hub/Herbal-cure-for-cancer
http://upekah.blogspot.com/

or u can always google or more :)